Having an urge to up sticks and move back to Leeds today.
It’s been a long fucking week.
Kaytranada~ Leave Me Alone
I am feeling good this evening, the sun is streaming through the windows and I’ve got nearly two full days off work. Also getting a new chest of drawers Thursday so we can finally not have a bedroom of boys clothes everywhere. Oh man, life is sweet.
Jessie Ware~Say You Love Me
Just bought tickets to see her in January. First fun thing for 2015 planned. Cool. Also real cool being charged to print my own tickets using my printer and ink. Awesome. I can see why people get fucked off with arts venues.
I might post everything I have saved in my Drafts folder. It’s erm… interesting.. well probably only to me, it spans quite a while of thoughts.
Why is everyone else the boss of me? The landlord, the boss, society, government institutions, people with more money. So fed up today. Everyone else gets to make the decisions while I sit back and take the shit. Wah wah wah.
Oooh, I haven’t posted for a while, which is weird as I actually have more time for things like this at the moment. And by things like this I mean things to waste time with. I had a long draft written out but it was me moaning about the Summer Lull, and I feel okay today so I’ve deleted it and written this instead. I think I am feeling better as I went out and lived a little, plus I am on the post hangover high today. You know the day after an epic hangover when you just feel incredible and alive because you aren’t on the verge of throwing up and you head isn’t pounding.
I am very tired today even after 12 hours sleep. I want to have a hide in bed day but things need to get done.
I had a productive day I cleaned everything and made banana bread and made a decent lunch despite having a few drinks last night. I then spent time laughing with my nephew and step nephew, children’s take on the world is incredibly soothing. Just running makes them laugh like crazy, I can’t remember the last time I ran let alone ran and laughed because I was having so much fun doing it. The warmth on my back and the sunlight falling across the park through the beautiful tall trees by the river and their giggling, so perfect. I wish I could write better, I can’t articulate how wonderful that feeling was. That is what life is. Then the atmosphere fizzled up and heard my mother fight our corner. And now I am here Sunday eve, ticking over and pondering and thinking and trying to decide things. Also my sister described me as ‘annoyingly calm’ today, is that because I don’t let myself feel things?
Ms. Ho~ Onra
Need to wake up and go. This weather makes me even more lazy. I had ice cream for dinner because it’s too hot and I didn’t want to make the flat hotter by turning on the oven, plus eating creates more heat and I am just lazy. I have things to say but I am having a night off from thinking, kinda.